Friday Night Light

August 27, 2011

I have no recipe to give.  It’s been a rough week.  I’m confident I am not alone in that sentiment.

It’s 11:44 on Friday and everyone has gone to bed.  I’m imagining houses everywhere with only the monitor light glowing in the darkness.  This is our time.  Time when the week has been laid to rest and we can gather our thoughts and muster up the energy to make it through a full day of Saturday sports and/or errands without falling over.

Most late nights find me searching the internet for interesting tidbits and unnecessary information.  At times, the computer is the new boob tube.

I’m so tired, I want to cry.  I opened my laptop to find some solstice in a little late night brain candy.  There are times when I struggle trying to understand how the everyday grind fits in with my authentic happiness.  I look up from my computer and wonder if all of the many hours spent hunched over my work are well spent.

If I had to guess, I’d say yes.  I’m building something that comes from my heart.  It’s worth the effort.  In general, I am not a work now, play later type of person.  There have been starts and stops to my career based on needing to slow down and enjoy my life.  I was reminded tonight of how special it can be to slow down.  We all could do well by getting outside, away from the white noise of the computer.

Tonight, my Friday night light is emitting memories of a special trip taken with my husband.
 

It was just the two of us on a trip to Peru to climb Machhu Pichu.  I don’t need to go into how it was a life changing experience and all the cliches that come with a trip of this kind.  It was quite simply, a wonderful vacation.  We created memories that I call upon when the week is rough and I need a bit of inspiration.

I am filled with gratitude as I watch the landscape of Peru and our hike unfold again in this video.  I am deeply and profoundly thankful that someone loves me enough to have created it for my memory book.  I’m sure the weekend will be hectic and I won’t get another chance to sit by myself and reflect on the sum total of my life.  I will be too busy with soccer snack.  For now, it’s just me and my memories lighting me to bed.

{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

Dorothy at Shockinglydelicious August 27, 2011 at 7:37 AM

This made me cry! It’s just beautiful.

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Melissa August 27, 2011 at 7:45 AM

Dorothy!
Me too. That husband of mine has a way with home videos. Makes me want to pull out my scrapbooking supplies. Well, almost.

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Andrew @ Eating Rules August 27, 2011 at 8:14 AM

I’ve been wanting to go to Machu Picchu for awhile now… Mind if I bring Trent along as my videographer?

(And step away from the computer and get some rest, lady!)

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Melissa August 27, 2011 at 10:42 AM

Andrew,
I’m hesitant to share but if you ask him directly, I bet he’d say, “Hell Yeah”

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Renee Fontes August 27, 2011 at 8:35 AM

I am in that same spot every day. Trying to find a tiny space in the everyday grind that is not about someone else needing or wanting something from me.That’s a good idea to look back at a nice vacation, maybe happy thoughts would quiet all the screaming in my head and I could find peace.

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Melissa August 27, 2011 at 10:39 AM

Renee,
I wish for you a moment of shear vacation bliss whether it be for one hour or one week! Much deserved.

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Stephanie, The Recipe Renovator August 27, 2011 at 9:24 AM

This is a beautiful post, Melissa. I have always wanted to go to Macchu Picchu and I felt like I was there with you. But what I loved about the video is how it demonstrates how in love with you your husband is. There’s nothing in the world that tops that, not even Macchu Picchu.

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Melissa August 27, 2011 at 10:40 AM

Okay Stephanie,
Now you made me cry. I never put my finger on it, but I think that is why I get so emotional watching it. I fell loved. Thank you for adding reason to my emotions!

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Marion August 27, 2011 at 6:29 PM

Oh Baby, this is beautiful, you and your family are so inspiring………..you made the right choice all those years ago. xox M

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Melissa August 29, 2011 at 12:28 AM

Marion,
You and your passport are the real inspiration.

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Rosemarie December 13, 2013 at 12:10 PM

Melissa,
Even without the vacation and the work you do, your life is a collection of moments and how you express your life in those moments determines the sum. The smile and encouragement you give a child while handing out soccer snacks, the authentic gratitude you convey to clerk that helped you, the care you put into housekeeping and cooking for your family, the way you lighten a stressful moment for yourself and others, the random acts of kindness to others and to nature that may never be acknowledged – this is your life well-lived! I remember in the height of my career I would agonize over “the balance” but in the end, it doesn’t matter. It’s those small moments that are the big ones.

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Melissa December 14, 2013 at 7:21 AM

Rosemarie,
I just adore you. Thank you.

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